Memories of a crimson (Read Only)

wildnelada · Stormtrooper Posts: 99 Join date: 2008-09-25 Age: 23

Entry I

Today it was my first mission. I met a few comrades in the process. I have to say it was a weird feeling to be in the real field for the first time. Those bandits were fierce. It all changed from the dummies and ranged targets of the training grounds. They were all alive and shooting back at you. There was blood, a lot of blood. Emotions played on it, when you see people shot at each other, seeking to end lives. Sometimes I ask myself why I do what I do, the answer, never coming. I continue the path hoping one day it might show. The universe is vast, so is the time I have.

I followed the pace of those brigands for a few hours, which let me join in with the rest of the group behind the operative. One was the man I met earlier on the morning, another was a creature I had seen but few times. Her skin was green and so was her hair, she had a most exotic beauty.

I don’t know, I felt like I saw certain creatures like these, but where, I am not sure…

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wildnelada · Stormtrooper Posts: 99 Join date: 2008-09-25 Age: 23

Entry II

I brought in a few badges that proved the membership of some raptors to the higher ups. What they are going to do with it, I am not sure. I do not know how some people are able to bear with some of those high ranking officers. They hand out the orders, tell you what to do and soon later dismiss you. Once you return successful, they give you only a salute and a small bonus to your pay check.
I am not sure if one day I will be the one giving out a few orders, but I am sure I will not be as bitter as the commander that leads this operative. Perhaps he had a bad day, maybe.

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wildnelada · Stormtrooper Posts: 99 Join date: 2008-09-25 Age: 23

Entry III

Perhaps it was foolish of me to have followed that officer. I am rumoured to be responsible and allied with criminals. I can not believe it.
I was reprimanded for not following orders, when the ‘higher ups’ did not really care to take their time to explain us better what we had to do. Though even that being in the past, I cannot help but to think an uncertain future awaits me in the force.
I am glad I am a natural calm person. I did want to make them eat back each word they had to say. One more venomous than the other.

Still, there’s Valen. He ran away from the scene when the rebel group escaped, boarding a ship to another planet. I followed him uncertain of his intentions.

With a little help of some renegades that kept him busy, I could bring him back to our planet. Yet, to only face the so called ‘judgement’. Everyone talks of me being a dark one. For only having done what I thought I should do.

All that for nothing, talk about confidence.

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wildnelada · Stormtrooper Posts: 99 Join date: 2008-09-25 Age: 23

Entry IV

That night a part of me seemed to die with that renegade. To see people get him beaten over and over and asking me to make sure he did not die so they could have their amusing moment was something I despised.
We had no need for such, he answered what we asked. Though he did not help his cause by insulting the superiors over and over. He seemed to have much knowledge; now gone…

I have advanced on my medical research. Developped new methods to treat injuries and much kind of drugs that would help out the soldiers. I feel useful in that matter, at least.

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wildnelada · Stormtrooper Posts: 99 Join date: 2008-09-25 Age: 23

Entry V

I am spending a few weeks in Tatooine, studying the fauna, the flora. There is little of the fauna to tell about, it’s a harsh weather where not too much vegetation exists, or at least as far as I can tell.

The Banthas are strong creatures, some of them have been most hostile during my trips through the warm sands of the desert. I’ve had to kill many in self-defence, mostly. Though the native people kill them in or out of town. It is a common sight to find a dead corpse on the streets of the different towns. The first days of my stay In this place were most, nauseous.

I am collecting the living cells of a few Banthas I caught alive, with the help of some local guards. I am writing this as I prepare myself to operate.

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wildnelada · Stormtrooper Posts: 99 Join date: 2008-09-25 Age: 23

Entry VI

After many failures, I’ve been able to extract the living cells of a Bantha specimen. It was a hard job but the results seem reassuring. I’ve tested it in a few rodents and other creatures and they seem to increase their muscles considerably.
It means a lot to me, and I am ready to test them into a greater creature. Just as us, humans. This could be useful.

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wildnelada · Stormtrooper Posts: 99 Join date: 2008-09-25 Age: 23

Entry VII

As I stepped into my house tonight, the moaning and crying of the animals coming from the living room attracted my attention.
The floor was soaked in blood. It was not hard to tell something was wrong. Once I reached the living room, I saw the snakes, cats, dogs and the creatures I had experienced the bantha cells with were all lying dead on the ground. It was terrifying…
Why did they have to die? I am supposed to be a master of keeping things healthy. I can not understand.
As I cleaned up the mess I saw one of them was still alive, groaning and moaning in pain. I took the cat in my arms and ran to my ship’s laboratory.

Sitting it on the scanning pod, I made haste looking on the animal’s state in my computer and what I saw was something I can’t explain with words.
Somehow all its organs were slowly dieing… Its muscles had grown too big to let it breathe. It was beyond medical aid.

I took back the cat and sat down on the bed as I pet its furs, singing a small song to it as it died in my arms.

I wept for hours until I found sleep.

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wildnelada · Stormtrooper Posts: 99 Join date: 2008-09-25 Age: 23

Entry VIII

I don’t know why I did what I did, but I felt like I had to save him. If Lord Vader still had interest in this man, then we’d need him alive.
It was no easy task to fool Rick out, but I managed. Now, if he survived that fall or not, that’s something I could not tell. Sure the deserts are harsh and the animals are even deadlier. I do not know if he will make it out.
I just hope Vader doesn’t find out what happenned, if that's the case…

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wildnelada · Stormtrooper Posts: 99 Join date: 2008-09-25 Age: 23

Entry IX

As I write this entry I am recovering from a rather, eventful day.
I had never been captured before, for the first time I got to put a few skills I’ve been learning. Should I have not injected myself with that substance, I might have lost my mind.

It was not something I expected. I met that man that supposedly was dead by now. Somehow the people we throw away keep finding a way back to life. How this is possible, my only guess is that this era has way too many ways to ensure someone’s life. Technology in the health domain has surpassed the natural intelligence.
Sometimes I wonder if I am to be happy or sad by that thought.

Nevertheless, Shepard and 9900 didn’t give out much information on what they needed. It makes me still wonder how, despite the fame our two commanders, how they couldn’t know who they were.
Yet… all this began because I didn’t feel needed to arrest those rebels on sight. They were worthless to me. Though they threatened me, eventually that mandolarian could play a trick on me and it is how we were captured.
I did nothing wrong to them and they still captured and did atrocities to us.

This proves that us, the empire, are not the evil. 'They' are the evil, and I shall from now on be determinate with those vermin.

The dawn of a new era. The day a part of me turned...

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wildnelada · Stormtrooper Posts: 99 Join date: 2008-09-25 Age: 23

Entry X

Those herbs devastated me. At least, they served their purpose.
I rarely take them; the secondary effects they leave are a pain. I hope that in the future I can find a way to actually work on some defences against it. For now, I am happy that I was able to save the troop from a sure defeat.

I wasn’t thanked for what I’ve done. I saved many lives. To know that I did what I was good at should be enough of a reward for me. Though somehow it bothers me; following orders from a commander and another captain was a bit troublesome. They’d ignore the healing spheres I’d develop and would soon leave. Many were down in a blink of an eye thanks to that. I could save them. I was the one most prepared to keep them alive. It is what I was born for and I keep training to.
When those ‘vermin’ ran at me, I escaped. I knew that I had to survive. With out someone to ensure other people’s lives, there was nothing else than death.
673 yelled on me often, and he slaughtered a few of the ‘pigs’ I convinced to help us. Yes, they lost control and assaulted the troopers, but once they stopped, they didn’t care to slaughter the little aid I had brought for them.
After many down sides, we were able to succeed on the mission. I fainted, though I woke back in the barracks and soon learned of the great news.

Somehow, I am not satisfied…

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wildnelada · Stormtrooper Posts: 99 Join date: 2008-09-25 Age: 23

Entry XI

After a few weeks, I’ve found the cause of the failure of the project I’ve been researching. If my studies are right, looks like those Banthas had way too much constitution for its cells to be implanted on a much, weaker being. This making them grow so much corporal mass that they will affect their own organism in a negative manner. Their bodies would grow to a size they can not resist. I’ve tried a way to reverse the effects some, but it will just not work. The effects will not leave in time, and the receptor will, in 90% of the cases, suffocate.

I started working with a new specimen. Smaller, yet stronger. I’ve injected its cells on various animals. Tomorrow I will see the results, hopefully positive.

By the way, I should start developing my own nomenclature.

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wildnelada · Stormtrooper Posts: 99 Join date: 2008-09-25 Age: 23

Entry XII

I simply can’t believe it is happening.
Looks like my new specimen cells have bloomed positively in the various creatures I’ve tested it on. They seem to have gained tremendous physical prowess and grown slightly in size. They are very alive now and useful.
My night is full of joy. To think of all the work I’ve done, now it is fruitful. I am eager to test it on humans. Yet, I still need to find a way to revert the process myself and not to wait for so many hours until it wears off by itself. It is just too dangerous. They could grow out of control. Something I will not let happen.

Either case, I’ve given it a name where only I would understand it, at least; written.

TI(M)MGN-OA

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wildnelada · Stormtrooper Posts: 99 Join date: 2008-09-25 Age: 23

Entry XIII

This was one of those days where I asked myself why I am where I am. I have no problems following orders; never had. Regardless of my personal thoughts on the issued command, I carry on the objective with out question. I’ve grown to be a great captain. I may hold the record on best tactical field medic; I reanimated more people than I can think of. Though no one really cares for you or what you do it seems. I grow to think I live in a cloud of lies.

When I inducted myself into the imperial army, I rose in ranks pretty quick. I knew when or how to shut up in most of the times. Though I cannot lie to myself by saying I reached the rank where I am out of only my skills.
It was a necessity…

The commander invents his own rules. I may have enlisted and received more recruits than he could ever have dreamed of. How he reached that rank, is a mystery.
Favouritism grows aloud. There are whispers. Rumours of personal dogs that rise in ranks yet they have no idea where they are standing on.

Followed this night, 2-1B12 is with me here. He is a good company; I hope to sleep tonight.

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Alexia Aiya Black ~ The crimson head

wildnelada · Stormtrooper Posts: 99 Join date: 2008-09-25 Age: 23

Entry XIV

No one listens.
Everyone wants to be the big picture. Of course, can I blame them? The figure of the empire was there with us. Of course they all needed to impress him.
It is rare that I fall; I had not expected that massive wookie to subdue me. Gladly, I was not hurt lethally.
They never listened to my statements. Everyone sought to be the hero and to fall doing such.
The mission was a success, though I’ve got a bitter experience from it…

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Alexia Aiya Black ~ The crimson head

wildnelada · Stormtrooper Posts: 99 Join date: 2008-09-25 Age: 23

Entry XV

First night I pass in the executioner. I like star bases, in a way, but I hate them at the same time. It is great to watch your planet from up here. Something you can’t permit yourself to do often if you’re the pilot of your own starship. It’s been a long day, I don’t like star battles. It is so dangerous.

On the other hand, I am very happy with a few of the troopers. They are most disciplined and don’t take their rights to the extreme. I see they are becoming great. I will be having two of them soon up to the rank of corporal.

There are others though. 8722, the commander is very troublesome now days. And the other day when we went to Korriban. Upon arrival, they told us they were expecting us so they could leave. I don’t know, but I feel like something is wrong. I don’t know why or how, but he is up to something…

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Alexia Aiya Black ~ The crimson head